Out with the old, in with the new (+Lil bit about me)​

Welcome to my first ever blog post (that's a lie - it's probably my 21st post since I had to edit it sooo much😅). You probably know me already if you found this blog but a little introduction wouldn't hurt, would it?

The name's Benita, but you can call me Beni, or Ben, or Ben 10 (as I'm called often in class for some reason🤦🏻‍♀️😂).

I'm from India - the south side - so you can guess I absolutely love spicy food. I was born in India, been in Qatar now for 5 years, and for 6 in Dubai, so I'm raised in the Middle East.

I love music, annnd I'm a bookworm (hehe), and I sing. I love hanging out w/friends and family and that being said, God & my family come first in my life - my faith is the most important thing to me.

Intro about me? Check.💁🏼‍♀️

Let's move on to a more serious topic.

If you were one of my classmates or close friend of mine, you'd know that my life at school was a mess last academic year. I lost friends, got my heart broken, disappointed my parents and people at school, got into trouble and was threatened on SC for no reason, went into depression, and lost my identity. I didn't know who I was anymore. My life was messed up and I didn't understand why I was sad all the time. I just needed time alone.

Or maybe I just needed a fresh start. A new beginning.

That's why I made sure that this year, I won't be a failure. I won't be a depressed couch potato, always worrying about what other people think about me. I promised to be carefree and bold, focused and productive at school, and most importantly - not to get my heart broken again. Not a lot of people believe in this 'new year, new me' b.s but I do. Oh, I definitely do. I really want to forget the old me and be better this year. It's been two weeks into the school year and - so far, so good. I don't want to jinx things but tbh I'm enjoying it. I'm spending time w/ new students, and also with the old friends who didn't push me away. Tbh people didn't push me away as far as I know, and I do spend 'some' time w/ them but feel like there's no real connection between me and them. Anyhooo, I'm ready to start over and move on. No more enemies, and I'm staying away as far as I can from drama.

I promise.

I just had to.